tankgirl

tankgirl27 @ 2007-07-19T00:07:00

2007-07-18T23:08:36Z

went to see shrek 3 today...not too bad. movies come out late here.

just got over being pretty sick the last couple of days. moved into my new place....trying to find a new job & it's not going so well. i miss money.

tankgirl27 @ 2007-07-14T11:40:00

2007-07-14T10:46:40Z

i thought maybe i should just keep track of what i'm doing on my trip here so i don't forget things, just write them here for myself. if i remember to update. & i only have a month left so it's kind of silly but oh well.

yesterday was a really really nice day. it was warm even on the beach where the breeze usually cools things down. thursday was my last day at my temp job so chris & i went to town & i got my cheques for the work i did & tried to see if the agency had anything else for me which they didn't. also, i found out it will cost 35 pounds to cash my cheques because i don't have a bank account which is a bit nuts.

anyway, we sat on the beach for a while & i got a sunburn on my shoulders. then i saw harry potter with j & v. it was actually really good. though i miss movie popcorn. here they only have sweet & salty, no butter/margarine at all.

today was supposed to be warm but it looks overcast. we're going to go help build the sussex university pride float.

tankgirl27 @ 2007-01-25T18:51:00

2007-01-25T23:51:44Z

i am not sure what to think of this myspace/facebook jazz. the only people who want to be my friends on myspace are in bands (bands i probably don't like at that) & the only people who want to be my friends on facebook are ANYONE I'VE EVER MADE EYE CONTACT WITH. i no get it. it's overwhelming. i am overwhelmed.

tankgirl27 @ 2007-01-14T13:40:00

2007-01-14T18:40:24Z

this morning as i was eating my breakfast, i heard dripping. i thought it was the tap. then there was a more urgent rushing of water & i looked over into my living room (aka the other half of the small square room that is my living space) & there was dripping coming from the ceiling! i put some bowls underneath it, it wasn't coming down TOO heavily & it eased off within the next 10 minutes. the "water" was coming from a bubble in the paint up there. you know the kind. or at least, i do; i've lived in enough crumbling holes to recognize a liquid-paint bubble when i see it. anyway, all is well--there are a couple of much smaller bubbles that don't look like they'll burst & i told my super & everything. but the "water" is yellow & therefore is possibly not "water" at all. i think i will find out when i return to my apartment & am more objective in labelling the smell. i hope it's not what i think it might be. if it is, no matter how much i clean them, i don't think i'll ever look at those bowls in the same way again.

tankgirl27 @ 2006-12-31T13:37:00

2006-12-31T17:37:14Z

hi.

it's been a while.

right now i am really into: small dogs with funny names (snorkies, chugs, schnoodles, etc) & old-fashioned buttons.

my christmas was nice, it's nice to be home. i do have to go back though.

tonight is new year's & it sounds pretty boring.

tankgirl27 @ 2006-10-12T21:17:00

2006-10-13T01:17:05Z

60 hours a week of school + homework all the time = whack.

we got 3 days for thanksgiving, which is unheard of & obviously awesome, but i'm pooped already.

this is all my brain will allow me to type. now i will go & try to pull something creative & brilliant out of my ass so i can sleep before i have to get up & present it, to people, tomorrow.

whack whack.

tankgirl27 @ 2006-09-18T17:48:00

2006-09-18T21:44:48Z

oh, shoot why did i choose to update with only two minutes to go on?

um okay so it's really nice out today. seems kind of funny that i was day dreaming about making a ginger bread house this afternoon.

uh ook one more minute! i have to go downstairs now! write more later, don't worry you legions and legions of fans.

tankgirl27 @ 2006-09-03T13:14:00

2006-09-03T17:22:59Z

so...back at school almost. well, at school but classes haven't started. just using the computer lab, like an addict. probably better if i can't figure out how to steal wireless from my apartment.

speaking of--my apartment is adorable. i've spent all week setting it up. i painted this shelf-unit thing that's been in my family for ages, i should post a picture. it's now pale yellow with black knobs & i'm going to stencil a black owl to each of the cupboard doors. also, i'm working on latch-hooking a rug for the living room, it's going to have a horse on it. i started last night & from the looks of it, it should take me approx. 4 years to finish.

i can't get a single channel on my tv which is okay except sometimes when i'm alone i find comfort in television, because you know that other people are watching that exact thing at that exact time. movies are a little more isolating. still, i've been watching the ones i have & they are pretty great. in & out: stellar movie. 9-5 of course gets 18 gold stars. dolly parton warms my heart in ways that no other celebrity ever has, not even jtt. i'm going to go buy more used vhs today i think.

okay bye!

once up on a time, i made a robot out of boxes

2006-07-16T22:40:38Z

tankgirl27 @ 2006-05-31T12:03:00

2006-05-31T16:47:51Z

the other day i went to the suburban mall with my mom. she hadn't known what to get me for my birthday so we went shopping thinking, "maybe we'll find an outfit i can wear to the three weddings i'm going to on three consecutive saturdays this august." i had thought that it wouldn't be a big deal to buy a dress to wear to these nuptuals-the three couples are not in any way related to each other, so no one would notice if i wore the same one. but then my mom started educating me about things like bridal showers and gift registries & i realized that i am basically already in debt because of all that. i sure can't wait till i don't get married & no one buys me anything to pay me back for the thousands of dollars i am now realizing i will have to spend on countless people for the rest of my life.

also, my mom is putting my name on the bridal shower invitations for my cousins' fiance because she thought it would be more appropriate because we are closer in age. though she assured me that she would do all the dirty work (things like making tiny sandwiches and probably strategically placing doilies around the living room), i insisted that if my name is on the invitations, then they can't have roses or lace or children kissing on them. she said okay. so while we were at the mall, we looked through a bunch. after vetoing the ones that fit the above descriptions as well as those that said stupid things like "love is forever," i okay-ed the only one left. it has an umbrella on it (albeit, a pink umbrella. so we don't forget that showers are for girls.) & it says "looks like a shower!" this is fairly stupid, but also pretty vague & at least it doesn't make marriage & weddings seem like things that are amazingly awesome that everyone in their right mind should aspire to.

anyway, besides that, we had the mission of finding me a dress. we went to a bunch of stores & i got pretty bored because they all have basically the same thing & women supposedly have more fashion leeway than men but that's not really true because there is still one essential look that girls are always supposed to be going for: whichever one compliments your best features and best hides your hideous flaws. needless to say, i didn't find anything to wear, but i did manage to pick out at least a part of my birthday present: "the essential dolly parton," a two-disc set with all her greatest hits.

on our way back to sears where we had parked the car, my mother & i discovered that an abercrombie & fitch store had apparently just opened in the mall. now, i have heard that some men like girls who wear abercrombie & fitch (& also that chinese food makes them sick), so in my eagerness to please these (& all) men, i thought i'd give it a go. i would offer some kind of assessment of the clothing line or the store itself, but i can't. i was thrown too off guard first thing by the young muscular man standing in the entrance of the store wearing nothing but shorts and flip flops. that's right: topless. THIS WAS EXTREMELY CREEPY. he was honestly just standing there, greeting people. i avoided eye contact & squeezed in behind the set of people in front of me, because i don't know what i would have done if he'd addressed me directly. inside, to not disappoint male customers i suppose, there were plently of girls in tight jeans with long blonde hair & a genuine interest in how each potential customer was doing that day.

as soon as we were in, i looked at my mom & we agreed that we needed to get out very quickly. it wasn't easy; the place was quite dark & had a number of rooms you had to go through before you could reach the exit, which was partially blocked off by a table and a male and female (fully-clothed, thank god) goodbye-er couple. my mother & i walked quickly through the corridor. i thought we were thinking the same thing, & that we might have a heated political debate about capitalism, body image & perhaps even heteronormativity in the car on the way home, but as we hurried out of the mall, all my mother said to me was, "that was really strange. i don't know how i feel about it. sad, i think. someone's poor child is standing in that doorway with his shirt off." i just nodded & said "weird." i didn't want to bog her head up with politics anyway-she has a bridal shower to plan after all.

tankgirl27 @ 2006-05-24T14:25:00

2006-05-24T18:22:46Z

i'm coming home on friday. i'm having some kind of as yet unplanned birthay party on saturday in toronto, at which time i will turn 24 years old. first i have to sell my fridge & stove, pack my things & move them to various places, & move myself to the big smoke at the end of it all.

it's sunny out.

see you soon.

tankgirl27 @ 2006-05-11T13:54:00

2006-05-11T17:44:15Z

i can't believe ashlee simpson got a nosejob. what a let down.

tankgirl27 @ 2006-05-07T17:29:00

2006-05-07T21:32:26Z

okay so so so....school is done! over! finis! can you believe? i'm not sure i can. i've been waiting for this for a VERY LONG TIME. & then of course when it actually happens, there are no angels that sing from on high or anything. & sure, i will miss some things & some people, but whatevs. overall, i can't wait to go back home. i'll be back at the end of may. guess where i'll be living? at mom & dad's! i am cool. (people who live in the city & have couches: let's get to know each other better.)

next up: finding an apartemnt for september (or august, or july). i'm getting my own place, a 2 & a 1/2 hopefully. this is a grown up thing to do. i also might buy some plants & try not to kill them.

so yes, i have to find a new place, move out of this place and put some stuff in storage before i can come home. & then i will come home. wish me luck.

tankgirl27 @ 2006-04-24T18:55:00

2006-04-24T22:54:07Z

sooooo i'm in a pretty good mood lately. it's been soooo nice out. except for the last few days, actually. but i have 10 more days of school, & then i can sleep in past 7am more than 2 days in a row!!! this is huge. & i'm gonna go home, & i'm gonna have fun....so good.

turns out i don't have much more to say than that.

tankgirl27 @ 2006-03-27T18:11:00

2006-03-27T23:11:03Z

it's warmer out now.

i've stopped wearing long johns (this may not be permanent).

i had a good two weeks of school after my march break, now we are working for six weeks on a play.

& then school will be done for the year!!

you want to know what i'm doing all summer? working part time & then focusing on friendships.

hey, i bought a violin off ebay for $60. i had a dream it came but it was for left-handed people. it hasn't actually come yet. if it turns out it's a lefty i might start writing my dreams down more often, & hope i don't have that one again where i'm at school in just my underwear. also, i'll have to get rid of the pointless violin.

jesus christ

2006-03-11T22:17:12Z

thank you internet, for providing a public forum for people with much more time and energy than me wherein they may document and often personify the actions of their pets. i'm actually not even kidding.

tankgirl27 @ 2006-02-03T11:56:00

2006-02-03T16:58:58Z

soooo now i am alone again after having had many houseguests. they were nice houseguests. they did my dishes & gave me lots of food. lots of food! you guys can come back anytime. i miss my roomie though. she is mysteriously absent.

mmm, i think i have the february blahs. it's so hard to get out of bed. just over a month until march break. oh, how strange to be in high school again.

lots of different body parts are hurting. but that's okay. i like fridays. right now for art class i'm researching alice b toklas, cause we're having a fake dinner party at picasso's next week. this means i don't have to exercise today. awesome.

hey i'm singing a solo for a presentation tomorrow. i'm feeling pretty good about my singing voice lately.

tankgirl27 @ 2006-01-16T17:55:00

2006-01-16T23:01:29Z

in first year i discovered this weird thing where if i pressed into the very top of my stomach, just under that upside down 'v' in the ribs (it's called the sternum), i had a really intense heartbeat there. i shocked & awed millions with this strange but beautiful drumbeat in such an unexpected place. mmm, well maybe the number was closer to 2. regardless, i always suspected it of signalling something VERY WRONG going on inside of me but as always was too ashamed to bring it up in the doctor's office. so imagine my joy when today i learned that when you are full, your stomach expands and presses your diaphragm up, which in turn is squished between the stomach and the HEART. get it? so naturally, after i've eaten, the palpatations of my heart echo into my diaphragm, resulting in a very strong rhythm there because the muscle is forcefully tense. i still don't know why mine seems to be a lot more froceful than other peoples, but i think it's okay to cross it off my "possible reasons for an untimely demise" list. which is good.

i have to go look up montreal bus routes now. the transit here is so shitty.

tankgirl27 @ 2006-01-11T12:45:00

2006-01-11T17:42:40Z

well we're right back at it...68 hours of school this week...& still no wife. so lonely.

wanted: one wife

2005-12-28T16:59:11Z

i'm having the greatest time at home. i love it here. i love having friends & being able to sleep & being able to be alone if i want to sometimes.

but on the horizon lies my trip back to schoolsville & i'm trying to plan ahead. there will be a free room in my apartment in january & i was thinking how lovely it would be to offer it to someone. free rent for a month in montreal! but there's a catch, (besides the fact that it's january in montreal): you have to keep the place clean & make my lunches & dinners & snacks for me to take to school every day. maybe i think you would also do laundry & grocery shop. but i would pay for our food! (by "i," i mean my parents, because i am a loser). & whatever you do with the rest of your time is your business!

i've been thinking about it, & i would really benefit from having a wife. at almost 70 hours spent at school a week, i deserve to not have to do housework or make any meals way more than your average businessman in the 50's ever did. i would like my life a lot better if i could just come home & have leisure time instead of thinking of food for the next day. & on sundays we could sleep in, do crossword puzzles & watch movies as long as you had my laundry done for the week ahead & the meals planned & everything.

i think this is would be a great deal for the both of us. applications can be left in the "comments" section.

tankgirl27 @ 2005-12-14T20:03:00

2005-12-15T01:03:12Z

okay okay so we did our scenes today. you know what that means don't you? it means that tomorrow is the singing concert, friday is the gumboot dancing, saturday is the packing & sunday is the train ride. i can't wait, i miss you toronto & all you entail; sleeping, eating, drinking, familiar things & people, & using my legs as little as possible!

i am going to go drink a bit now.

tankgirl27 @ 2005-12-06T19:22:00

2005-12-07T00:21:20Z

12 days now.....feeling much better.....okay, i'm going home to bed now!! (before 8:30pm?? weird).

tankgirl27 @ 2005-11-28T12:12:00

2005-11-28T17:14:36Z

i have not been feeling happy today. sometimes i just get hit with all the things i don't like about my life all at once for some reason. i woke up thinking about it all today & i wish i had time to just sit down & sort things out.

yesterday people came to my house & solved the mystery of what is under the creepy trap door thing that we hide with a rug! i've always been too scared to look because it seems like a fantastic place to store bodies. dead ones. but it turns out that there's a crawlspace under the apartment & there are milk crates, spray paint, a recycling box & a hard hat in it. i wouldn't rule out corpses yet; the area was only scoured within a three feet radius of the hole.

tankgirl27 @ 2005-11-22T10:48:00

2005-11-22T16:00:26Z

singing class is cancelled today. now we have a three hour break. weird!

my parents came to visit on the weekend. it was really nice. they are such parents, they came & like put up curtains for me & fixed stuff in the house while i was at school on saturday. but they were also supposed to bring a bunch of furniture for me but couldn't because they were really busy last week. so the living room is still pretty bare.

i'm counting down the days until christmas break. 26 days from today.

otherwise...same old, same old.

journals are boring aren't they? does anyone care about these details of my life? how about this one: my hair is really short & i'm trying to grow it out in a way that it doesn't look stupid until it's the length i want it. i also really am hoping that it can be longer without me having to straighten it. it's really dark now too cause all the bleached parts have been cut off. it's the first time it's been natural since like....grade 9 or something. what is great is that i actually don't wash my hair anymore, for real. or blow dry it. & i don't brush it anymore. i think in the end the saved time will add years to my life. sometimes i run soap through it or maybe once every other week i might dab in some shampoo but the key to my hair not looking stupid when it's not straightened, i've learned, is to keep it dirty enough to not be fluffy the way it is the day you wash it.

sometimes when i run my hands through my hair like white flakey things come out but it's not dandruff!! i don't think. i'm pretty sure it's just dried up pomade or hair spray or something!! i don't think i'm the dandruff type. i bet my classmates think i'm the grossest. i also have terrible terrible skin lately. & am feeling more insecure than i have since high school. rookie is this that second puberty you were talking about??

tankgirl27 @ 2005-10-15T16:39:00

2005-10-15T20:36:46Z

wait, one more thing:

a few weeks ago me & jess couldn't rent a movie cause we didn't have proof of address yet so no one would let us open an account (we ended up opening an account the next week with a place that only rents dvds before we realized we only have a vhs player but that's a different story). so we were wandering around trying to find a convenience store or something that would rent to us but instead we found this used electronics store that had these used videos. the funny thing is that it was a small collection, & this was just a random french electronics store with like university guys working at it but an unnaturally large proportion of these videos were gay-related. there was like 'lost & delerious' in french & 'bound' & stuff. so i ended up buying 'kissing jessica stein,' 'in & out' & margaret cho's 'i'm the one that i want.' i also this very odd collection of elvis costello music videos.

so i love margaret cho & i just found this quote of hers that i think is hilarious:

"I just don't get it. People come up to me and ask me where I'm from and it's such a loaded question. And I'll say 'I'm from San Francisco,' and they lean in and whisper 'No, I mean where are you REALLY from?' And then I have to say 'Well, my parents are originally from Korea.' And then I have to listen to stories about all of the Korean people they know, or some Korean food they ate once, or how they're not sure they're pronouncing a Korean word right. And it's like...I don't care. I don't get it! I never walk up to white people and say, like, 'Oh my God, are you from France? No, not recently, I mean like a couple thousand years ago? Oh my God I totally knew it! I love your fries!"